Day 3 of Challenge, Class # 4

Well today is day 3 of the challenge and I am ahead one class. I have to say that is a satisfying feeling being one class ahead even though I know it won’t be for long. I woke up this morning excited to take class tonight and I felt inspired having this goal. A coworker today asked me how my 60/60 was going. I told him about this blog, but I really like the saying 60/60… that is what I am gonna call the challenge from now on!

I will say that I was particularly thirsty today. It may have been the chinese food from last night or from lunch (guilty of eating like a beast) or maybe from the yoga? Either way I chugged a ton of water today and then started to panic that I would have to pee during class. Sure enough, I had to pee during class even though I went before I left for the studio and right before class started. I even contemplated jumping up that last two seconds before class starts and the teacher comes in a turns the lights on with her list of students. But I missed that window of opportunity and I was cursing myself or as Becca called it today having “inner dialog”. I tried to ignore the urge to pee but it would not go away. So after Eagle pose ,and right when “party time” was announced – I made a mad dash (quietly of course.. to go for my “pee time”).

OK , I was relieved and happy and feeling lighter. I just thought during my whole inner dialog, if I don’t go now, when we hit the floor and on our bellies I am so screwed and probably going to pee on myself.  Although, I question if anyone would really notice since we all look like we have been swimming with our yoga clothes on.

After that I had a pretty strong class. It was super packed today at 5pm but I managed to get a front mirror spot again (Thank you Yoga Gods!) I need to see myself, that is my crutch in class. One day I will move to the back of the room and work on that, just like not wiping and not drinking water – I am working on those two crutches as well. (Not really, yet, but it’s on the bucket list) I was happy to have made it to class. It was a “racing to class” kind of day after a last minute phone call from the Bossman. Whew, I made it and I have my spot and all is good with the world.

I ran into a few yogi friends today before class and talked with Kathy about all her past challenges she had done. She said at the end of the 60 days you definitely feel changed for some reason or maybe it is just “Yoga Brain”. I like to believe there will be a shift inside of me after the 60 days of this committment. It surely has already changed my mindset in class and outside of class. Pretty much I am just obsessed about the class and getting the sticker on that chart. (It’s like potty training with the whole reward process of stickers for going potty. I do have a 3 year old right now not potty trained, so I am assuming she will be like her mommy and respond to the whole chart/sticker reward.)

Also there were a couple first timers in class today which always makes for an interesting class. There’s something about the energy of first timers. I am sure I had the same energy my first time. It is so good to see first timers because it is humbling and reminds you of your first time. Also with all the people in the room there was definitely a buzz of energy flying around. Good thing because it was HOT HOT HOT today! I had a great “rear view mirror” today (people in your eyeline behind you and beside you). I know you are supposed to just focus on yourself at ALL times, but as I stated before, I have the concentration of a fly and I can’t help but sneak a peek here and there.

One girl behind me was just plain awesome. She was super bendy and even did some crazy ass advanced posture during the second Camel. I did have inner dialog and said to myself, “Self you will do that one day.” Just putting the intention out there, that is all. No pressure on the time of course… just one day. Anyway she really helped me  during class and her energy truly carried me. Funny thing after class in the locker room she said that I helped her because she really couldn’t see herself today. That’s the cool thing about this yoga. You don’t even know you are helping people, but you are while at the same time helping yourself.

I do want to back track to the whole Standing Head to Knee posture. It  is really pissing me off. I know I shouldn’t be pissed off and I have to just love my body and take each class at a time but I swear, I wish I had more consistency on this one. It is the one posture that makes my legs, butt, stomach feel like there are explosions going on inside. There is always tomorrow right?

For some reason after class I haven’t been able to be a chatterbox for 90 minutes, I feel the urge to talk non stop for the next several hours. It is a funny phenomenon that I just noticed tonight. My poor husband has to hear most of it when I come home. Which while I am on the topic of husbands… I have the most giving and supportive husbands out there. He encourages and cheers me on with my endeavor in Bikram Yoga. I know it is hard on him handling dinner time and also the hours away during the weekend but he never complains and seems happy for me. I know without him I would never be able to attempt this challenge so before I go anymore days, I need to officially thank him for being that support and allowing me to do this 60/60.

One thing for sure writing this blog and documenting this whole  60/60 is making me more “present”. I know I am accountable not just to the chart, but to myself and this blog. It is turning out to be a great thing for me. Also, I am noticing all this inner dialog during the day of ideas to blog about besides  the challenge. Stay tuned for that. I wish there were more hours in the day to write. Who knew that I liked to write.

I anxiously await what tomorrow will bring, how I will feel, what kind of class I will have. I will end this blog post with a great quote that my Mother-in-Law gave me on a card. It is a great mantra and I often say it when I find myself in some crazy stress frenzy or even when I am having a tough yoga class. I don’t remember who wrote it but it is really helpful:

Slow Down

Calm Down

Don’t Worry

Don’t Hurry

Trust the Process

It’s a good mantra for this 60/60

Namaste Peeps!